It is finished. I am done with the semester. It feels extremely good. Now what do I do?
I don't know why I'm writing this post. My mind is very blurry and it is tired. But I just want to write. Type out whatever. Let's see where it takes me. I've been having a hard decision to make. I'm thinking about deferring my next semester. Meaning, taking less subjects; prolonging my time to complete my Diploma course. I want this because I'll have more time and more effort to put into my assignments, and of course, other daily things. Things I didn't have the time to do when I was in the previous semester. What's holding me back is my friends. It will mean I won't be graduating with them. And won't be in the same class anymore. It's hard. Really hard to choose.
Also, I have been having one on one talks with my closest friends. I love sitting down in cafes/anywhere quiet, and just spill my heart out to my friends. And vice versa. It beats talking on the phone anytime. There's something beautiful about it. When we talk about deep meaningful things. When we encourage and inspire one another. Look the person sitting opposite you in the eyes.. Grasping every word they say. And taking it to heart. The feeling it gives you when you connect with that person. Indescribable. Everyone should experience it.
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Why do I feel distant to You? I told myself I'm not going back to my old ways. Slap me in the face please Lord? Not literally though.