BLACK ROSES

photos by Kyeli

Being a Christian is not easy. Many times I have failed to keep the faith. To be completely honest, I have not been as passionate for God these few days. I mean, I still do talk to Him everyday. But I feel.. distant, sort of. I hate how I know it's my fault, but yet I still don't do anything about it. Example; I know I have been putting other 'wordly' things before Him. Like my studies and my blog. But deep down.. I know the results of these things are never really fulfilling. Yes I am happy for a short while. But after that, all I feel is emptiness. I try to remind myself everyday 'what do I live for?'. That's the main reason why I don't want to get too attached to fashion. By that, I am referring to clothes. Yes, fashion is a great thing. It's one of the ways I can express myself and my creativity. But it becomes meaningless when you overdo it without emotion (posting for the sake of posting). I love my sponsors, very much. They've given me opportunities to get creative with my blog posts. And I am thankful they understand when I tell them I'd blog by my own pace. I cherish each item they have blessed me with. But I never want to get too attached to them. Clothes are clothes, are clothes. They have no feeling or soul. I would rather get attached to people where there are real emotions. Invest more time and energy and love in things that matter most; family and friends, and most importantly, God. 

I just needed to get that off my mind. I honestly feel much better now. I guess God has been testing my faith. I realize that now. And I hope my walk with Him gets stronger like before. 

Thank you MiruMiru for the lovely blouse. Also, thanks to Kyeli for taking these photos! I wore this to a lunch date with her yesterday. Took lots of photos too! I'll share them here soon. :) 

Psalm 86:4

Give happiness to me, your servant, because I give my life to you, Lord.